Saturday, January 16, 2010
hey guys,its been a solid week plus since i disconnected myself.iv learnt several things along the way.im almost there,but nowhere near perfection.till now i learnt perfection never actually existed,nor its even possible.perfection is just an imaginary goal in our minds that we thought we could achieve.though in reality perfection exist as just a meaningless goal that is synonymous to our blood that fills our vessels;it drives us.i have noted the fact that some things are coherent and perfectly fair in so many ways.
"its not fair,the world is not fair"-said a friend of mine.no the world is fair,if you really think of the sequence of things and how its correlated and placed into its sections,so meticulously only a genious(God) can execute it.i have learnt that i shouldnt care for others so much so till it bends and dents the relationship with my loved ones.sure,i care for my loved ones,and i "judge" people so that i can make people realize and change-its called positive criticism,of which a lot of people cant handle because to me they tend to confuse between perception and reality.to this,i have stopped permanently caring or hoping that i could change or improve certain people,of which i should have known the tasks are daunting and seems now impossible.
i should have known that being repetitive and rhetorical about things in light people could consider my motives isnt going to hone a postive impact on anything.i have learnt that other people's problems and issues are theirs and their business only.i have no right to bump into their private life or interrupt the way of life that they have.i have learnt that actions speak louder than words, and no matter how much i try to convince or promote a certain way of doing things,somehow divine intervention will always kick in and it will mean nothing if i preach but do not pray.
i have learnt that my real aim was there all along and i regret to always create obstacles along the way and making society a topic that i would debate on that does not even matter at all in the first place.furthermore i learnt that the small things dont really matter at all.i used to think that the little details are important,as you know im fascinated with the world of horology and mechanical machines.however,i seem to see the bigger picture is more important and substancial than the little parts in it.
correct me if im wrong here though,but i know that the more i care for the little things and the things that are "bias","incorrect",socially incorrect due to the stereotypes that make up our society,the more i get stressed and the more problematic things become and hence the less happy i am.i hope that i could learn more,and i have still some kinks that needs to be ironed out.i wont say im a success but i will say i am a learner thats eager for knowledge.all i know,my time is running out and i can only pray that things will become better in the future.insyAllah.
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8:35 AM
okeh iv done crapping x)


