Saturday, February 17, 2007
mood:apathetic,moody
hey i dunno but people around me now seem to get i'll ..it's weird but im experiencing sick people around me.minus the patients in my dad's werking place of coz.my fren;akmal got water in his lungs and need to be operated this monday..my frend again;jan got a tumour removed..bout 2 weeks ago i tynk..and im getting more news of sick people;which i kenal of coz..its weird but at the same time i take it as a test frm god..mayb to test my patience(without me goin crazy over my frenz getting sick- gila-gila punya saket bukan biasa punya saket) or my true friendship as in will i b there for them etc...or its just coincidence cuz shit do happen sometimes
next monday im havin a bash of 20 at pizza hut.its a celebration of my belated bday;13 feb.i had it bcoz i wanted my dad to bring me to KL to go jalan2 but instead he cant bcoz he got werk and so on.so i talked him into making this gathering at pizza hut.boi i hope its fun...my dad sez onli 20+ is allowed..initially i scrolled my phone's contacts and list out some of the names and SMACK IN MY FACE..50 ppl..CRAP pizza hut cant fit dat much ppl at 1 tyme! so..i narrowed it down till 29..and again till 22..wuw....no gothic dudes..and definitely no mafia ! ahahah ku8 ko paham2 ah ape aku cakap nieh ..LOL .so i hope they come lah..and i didnt invite "DAT" person..y? i wanna avoid drama..dats all...all d ppl dat came all got beef so yeah..even i got beef so it wasnt natural for me to invite..yeah lets forget abt dat shall we
anyway..my parents got back frm bali d..so happi to see them agen after a whole week of staying home wif my lame aunt and uncle..sheesh...heppi siak..dah jumpe my parents my parents bli stuff plak! :D.they bought me jeanz+shirt which was at sale there and got me cologne as well! awesum..it was a three pack so i gave d 30ml to my bro..ahh..ok dis gets boring now
a view on life :
have u ever thought wad ppl think abt u?especially when ur dead? i mean how people will remember u by? see i try so hard to make my image good and my rep clean so that ppl will remember me as some1 dats sumthn..its crazy to think of this actli..how u view urself using other ppl's lens..i admit dat i have done mistakes and craps dat i shudnt haf done i boi i paid fer it and its ear deafening to noe dat some of ur frenz..even gud frenz arnt dat gud as u'd expect..killing u bit by bit swallowing u every second..to think its nothing until 1 day a dude puts d trigger to your head and all ur so called "frenz" run away like cikens...and put this situation in ur family..what if ur aunt or ur uncle just pretend to hang around bcoz of sumthn and when dat sumthn is gone ..poof..byebye..huh..mayb im thinking wayy outta my box but mind games r fun.thinking dis makes me less trust people in a way..but it does make u realise whose ur real frenz dat care and take all ur crap and who just stood there as pretenders.im being a hypocrite if i pretend back to care so i just dont giv a heck abt 'them' cuz they just make me sick.i shall and wont b a hypocrite is u get what i mean even if it hurts.
i always point out to ppl how important honesty is.if truth is so hard to be spoken yet lies is so easy to be told then dont be a friend at all.secrets will onli create barriers and imaginable illusion in people therefore keeping secrets will onli make matters worst.
take care then
8:16 AM
okeh iv done crapping x)


